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my nerves are rotting

by Carry On, October!

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starry-eyed 03:13
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Still talking Hey, are we still talking? Cause I don't wanna lose a hint of this connection Consider this my confession if you want Still feeling I still got that feeling Well, I don't wanna sound like some hopeless romantic And I don't wanna get pedantic I just am Is this some kinda punishment? Did I inflict this on myself? Cause I feel this feeling up and down and all around It keeps insisting on itself I can't escape it Whoa, I can't escape you Remember Yeah, I still remember When we first met in person two months before September Or five before December It's a blur Recall Yeah, I still recall Way too many nights spent past midnight on a call Laughing until we both bawled our eyes out Is this some kinda punishment? Did I inflict this on myself? Cause I feel this feeling up and down and all around It keeps insisting on itself I can't escape it Whoa, I can't escape you I wouldn't give my time spent with you for the world I wouldn't give my time spent with you for the world I wouldn't give my time spent with you for the world No, all the time that I've spent with you is the best in the world Is this some kinda punishment? Did I inflict this on myself? Cause I feel this feeling up and down and all around It keeps insisting on itself I can't escape it Whoa, I can't escape you Is this some kinda punishment? Did I inflict this on myself? Cause I feel this feeling up and down and all around It keeps insisting on itself I can't escape it No, I can't escape it But I don't wanna escape you
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woman 03:30
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Nail polish is chipped Makeup is running in the water and my My towel is ripped I guess I'm not sure if this is what I wanted cause I Still feel their eyes Trace the shape of my form and my body, well I Don't wanna deny Sometimes they look at me and I feel like a squatter and I Don't belong Guess I'll just write another song No, I don't belong Guess I'll just wring my neck I'll wring my neck New school, old town Colors are different, but the rumors never change, and when You know you're found You thought you'd progressed, but you're really on page one again Same throat, new sound Empty soliloquies unlike you've ever heard before So when I'm down I take my solace in remembering the fact that I Don't belong Guess I'll just write another song No, I don't belong Guess I'll just wring my neck I'll wring my neck Nail polish is chipped Makeup is running in the water and my My towel is ripped I guess I'm not sure if this is what I wanted cause I Still feel their eyes Trace the shape of my form and my body, well I Don't wanna deny Sometimes they look at me and I feel like a squatter and I Don't belong Guess I'll just write another song No, I don't belong Guess I'll just wring my neck I'll wring my neck Don't belong Guess I'll just write another song No, I don't belong Guess I'll just wring my neck I'll wring my neck
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dreamcatcher 03:13
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Dreamcatcher On my windowsill No nightmares Think I've had my fill Light traces Shapes on windowpanes I'm dreaming Still don't know your name No mem'ry Just like grandmama I'm standing How'd I get this tall? Light traces Shapes on windowpanes Still dreaming Wish I knew your name I just wanna escape Pretend I'm in better place Maybe that's why I'm so sentimental While I sit here with you Both got nothing to prove Maybe that's what makes this fundamental I've been writing these songs Think they go on to long Wish that I could write more instrumental While I sit here with you I got nothing to prove Yet I still feel I'm so detrimental Dreamcatcher On my windowsill No nightmares Think I've had my fill Light traces Shapes on windowpanes I'm dreaming Still don't know your name No mem'ry Just like grandmama I'm standing How'd I get this tall? Light traces Shapes on windowpanes Still dreaming Wish I knew your name I just wanna escape Pretend I'm in better place Maybe that's why I'm so sentimental While I sit here with you Both got nothing to prove Maybe that's what makes this fundamental I've been writing these songs Think they go on to long Wish that I could write more instrumental While I sit here with you I got nothing to prove Yet I still feel I'm so detrimental Dreamcatcher On my windowsill No nightmares Think I've had my fill Light traces Shapes on windowpanes I'm dreaming Still don't know your name No mem'ry Just like grandmama I'm standing How'd I get this tall? Light traces Shapes on windowpanes Still dreaming Wish I knew your name
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maybe we shouldn't talk anymore 02:58
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All moments are lost, time bleeds in on itself The nights are like flies and I'm stuck on the shelf I soak in the rot, suck and sink into hell Don't look in my eye, all you'll see is myself I can't quite comprehend your constant contradiction And empty vases bring to mind my old and new conditions Am I the same person who made all of those bad decisions Or have I grown enough to dodge all these head on collisions? Sunset settles under the next overpass I wonder how much longer it can last The marble machine speaks in delicate tones It asks for my love when it just wants my bones "I'm wearing it down," I say secure from my home But it's still around while I'm sleeping alone I can't quite comprehend your constant contradiction And empty vases bring to mind my old and new conditions Am I the same person who made all of those bad decisions Or have I grown enough to dodge all these head on collisions? Sunset settles under the next overpass I wonder how much longer it can last I've been dreaming of a Place that's tropical Don't care 'bout anatomicals It isn't all that topical So we can get away To somewhere tropical Don't care 'bout anatomicals It isn't all that topical So we can get away To somewhere tropical Don't care 'bout anatomicals It isn't all that topical So we can get away To somewhere tropical Don't care 'bout anatomicals It isn't all that topical But that was just a dream
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swansong 04:04
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I fear the four walls of this car Visible to you, but not by far You leer at me through looking glass I pray, in this moment, I pass Reciting mantras in my head Can't count the siblings who are dead And so I'm locked inside this car Schrodinger's genie in a jar If I don't make it home, just know that I will always love you If I don't make it home, just know that I have always loved you If I don't make it home, just know that I will always love you If I don't make it home, just know that I have always loved you I fear detection more than all Avoid inspection, ignore the call Under my skin, I meet with you Watch as our skin is fading blue Roses entwined along my path Watch them recoil as I pass Some rose claim that I have lied Approach with thorns until I've died If I don't make it home, just know that I will always love you If I don't make it home, just know that I have always loved you If I don't make it home, just know that I will always love you If I don't make it home, just know that I have always loved you If I don't make it home, just know that I will always love you If I don't make it home, just know that I have always loved you

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some songs from a project that is currently on uncertain ground that i wanted to release anyways

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released April 29, 2022

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Carry On, October! Chicago, Illinois

your new favorite chicago transgender punk band. started as a solo folk punk project in 2020, now jamming as a four-piece. full band recordings coming soon!

vocals/rhythm guitar by maeve 🌼 (she/her) + lead by ouro 🐍 (they/it) + bass by elton 🌞 (any/all) + drums by sloane 😺 (they/she)

tranarchy forever 🏳️‍⚧️🏴 ... more

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