Sarah Holloway is a punk Yeah, she's doing just fine Sarah Holloway is a punk Yeah, she's doing just fine Do you remember Sarah Holloway? Yeah, she never gave up the fight She was the type with a guitar strapped to her back And she always had a cigarette to light There was something I was thinking, there was something I was drinking, there was something I didn't know I was doing She said "Baby, what's the problem? I know I ain't quite the model, but i gotta ask; why the fuck ain't you moving? I wanna see you grow I said I ain't sure if that's what you should ask of me I wanna see you grow Maybe that's how it has to be Sarah Holloway is a punk Yeah, she's doing just fine Sarah Holloway is a punk Yeah, she's doing just fine Do you remember when you gave a shit? Yeah, I wasn't sure if you did Cause to be honest, it lasted all of five minutes And it wasn't that convincing to begin with There ain't nothing radical 'bout bitching about capital while acting like there's nothing that you could be doing Better bet your ass is grass when I catch your dumbass harassing folks when we're expecting you to be improving I wanna see you grow When you refuse, that's actually what we don't wanna see I wanna see you grow Baby, that's how it has to be Sarah Holloway is a punk Yeah, she's doing just fine Sarah Holloway is a punk Yeah, she's doing just fine Sarah Holloway is a punk Yeah, she's doing just fine Sarah Holloway is a punk Yeah, she's doing just fine She said Do you wanna be a Part of something greater Than you've ever fucking known? I know what it's like, I've been there before, I know How it feels to be alone Join us, we'll push forwards to Healing, we'll takes steps towards Dealing with everyone who opposes our existence! I know you've been through hell And back, and it's hard to Trust but let me take that burden off your shoulders for a while Do you wanna be a Part of something greater Than you've ever fucking known? I know what it's like, I've been there before, I know How it feels to be alone Join us, we'll push forwards to Healing, we'll takes steps towards Dealing with everyone who opposes our existence! I know you've been through hell And back, and it's hard to Trust but let me take that burden off your shoulders for a while

Walking by the train It's headed past me in the other way These things, they never change If they ever did, it would seem strange to me Ain't nothing new Just my daily grind I'm headed through I work, sleep, eat and watch TV I'll make it through the queue I'm doing it right I work through mornings and through nights Yet I clearly see the writing on the wall All this shit's arranged To make me feel like I'm insane Because it's always the same story after all (That's why I) Don't believe in happy endings 'Til this system's burnt and bending I don't need your condescending tone (It feels like) I'm an island, isolated From people, alienated By what I've seen, it feels like I'm alone All this shit's arranged To make me feel like I'm insane Because it's always the same story after all Oh! (I was) Riding in the back Hiding my face behind a lowered hat Did I want to be ignored Or did I want to hide my snores from folks? 'Cause I wasn't awake Both my feet were sore and my head ached Am I about to break cause I don't I can take anymore ('Cause) I'm doing it right I work through mornings and through nights Yet I clearly see the writing on the wall All this shit's arranged To make me feel like I'm insane Because it's always the same story after all (That's why I) Don't believe in happy endings 'Til this system's burnt and bending I don't need your condescending tone (It feels like) I'm an island, isolated From people, alienated By what I've seen, it feels like I'm alone All this shit's arranged To make me feel like I'm insane Because it's always the same story after all Oh Oh oh oh Oho oh oh Oho oh oh oh oh oh oh Oh oh oh I'm a hopeless sentimental I'm a hopeless dreamer Tell me, did you concede recently Or does it go even deeper? I'd never trade my security for My idealism So back off with your schtick I don't need your gritty realism Give me oversaturation Give me popping colors I refuse the rust and dirt you See in all the others I would give myself for you if You would do the same And we could work together to bring an End to all the pain La da da da da La da da da da da da da dum La da da da da La da da La da da da da La da da da da da da da dum La da da da da La da da Why must I be silent with my Hopes of what's to pass? I'd rather see not another train, It seems they never last We could grow beyond them We just can't forget the tracks For they will always mark us We must bear them on our backs La da da da da La da da da da da da da dum La da da da da La da da La da da da da La da da da da da da da dum La da da da da La da da Ladada da da da Ladada da da da Ladada da da da da da da da La da da I still can't recall all the important words I've heard But I'm always coming back to what you said You said If it's sunny in Seattle and it's rainy in Miami, maybe There's a greater cause than "wind up dead" Up dead You know I was lost without a way Barely making it through the day You had no reason to stay But you told me "Don't let go." If I write another song, I would hope it's not so long And I would try to right my wrongs I would start by saying "Don't let go. Don't let go. Don't you let go of me. Don't let go. (That's why I) Don't believe in happy endings 'Til this system's burnt and bending I don't need your condescending tone (It feels like) I'm an island, isolated From people, alienated By what I've seen, it feels like I'm alone But I'm not

I can sense their rage Lock them in a cage Throw the key away We ain't gonna change Feel the emptiness Sink into abyss We ain't gonna change We ain't gonna change Guilty by design I have to resign You're a vacant hole Want to make it full I'll never grow up I'm a little boy I hate everyone I play with my toys If you still don't Get the joke, well, Maybe its on You You fixate on Horrid things, you'll Never get a Clue I can sense their rage Lock them in a cage Throw the key away We ain't gonna change I'll never grow up I'm a little boy I hate everyone I play with my toys If you still don't Get the joke, well, Maybe its on You You fixate on Horrid things, you'll Never get a Clue

Everything is covered in ants They pour out of my walls and make me answer their demands Yet you still insist I give them a chance While I kindly sit and listen to your sycophantic rants go on and on The ants are charging a fee So I can live inside and have a space belong to me Yet there's no reason it shouldn't be free Cause the ants don't even live here, they just leave to feed there queen And the market overflows, with folks who can't afford their clothes The market only knows, who lives, who dies, who blows their nose Everything is there on my lease The ants come a la carte and can claim anything they see (It kinda) feels like something from a bad dream But I'm never waking up because the ants are pinching me and I'm still here The ants, they covet my flesh They say that it is perfect for a massive, birthing nest So now, I come to find I'm possessed The ants pick throaugh my veins until I'm bloated and depressed And the market overflows, with folks who can't afford their clothes The market only knows, who lives, who dies, who blows their nose Yeah, I'm sick of living this way This scrounging around every day So I have enough cash to pay The antlords to keep them at bay From nesting themselves in my bones And turning me into their home For all time, my body will roam A husk with no will of its own Yeah, I'm sick of living this way This scrounging around every day So I have enough cash to pay The antlords to keep them at bay From nesting themselves in my bones And turning me into their home For all time, my body will roam A husk with no will of its own

Heard your voice call from the distance "You will not rule my existence," is what I will say I can put up my resistance But I'll fall to your persistence. Ain't that just the way? Despite all the words I've written, I don't know if I could listen to myself all day On and on into remission And I'll still ask your permission. Ain't that just the way? It all comes back to you Everything that I've been through It all comes back to you You know just what to Do to me, you know Just what to do to me, you know Just what to do to me, you do to me You do to me, you know It's an awkward kind of healing When you have to let your feelings take over your day So you're staring at the ceiling Doesn't that sound so appealing? Ain't that just the way? And you wonder how you're dealing Cause you feel your skin is peeling, it's peeling away And there's no point in concealing Oh, your look is so revealing! Ain't that just the way? It all comes back to you Everything that I've been through It all comes back to you You know just what to Do to me, you know Just what to do to me, you know Just what to do to me, you do to me You do to me, you know I wasn't joking when I said it all comes back to you And I'm still here hoping that one day you'll have to pay your dues I wasn't joking when I said it all comes back to you And I'm still here hoping that one day you'll have to pay your dues I wasn't joking when I said it all comes back to you And I'm still here hoping that one day you'll have to pay your dues I wasn't joking when I said it all comes back to you And I'm still here hoping that one day you'll have to pay your dues

Baby, ain't you heard? It's all the rage We should just give up cause life's a stage I'll be huffing paint to pass the time Maybe if I'm high enough, I'll write another rhyme or five I was by the grating Doing something self-degrading You were standing there, berating me For wishing I was dead Or maybe I was tripping Cause my ceiling light was dripping I'm not gripping to reality It's better in my head Fuck! I'm a burnout Get the word out I'm a burnout Cut the hurt out All my friends and fam'ly ain't around Half of them are dead inside, and half don't like the ground All my poetry is broken words And I don't mean the grammar, it's the syntax that's absurd Cause I'm sitting here and writing Lyrics, looking for enlightenment In hollow things, it's frightening How little I could care So I'm throwing in the towel Making it further was doubtful And I'll take your disavowal As I fall in to despair Fuck! I'm a burnout Get the word out I'm a burnout Cut the hurt out Of me! Cut the hurt out Of me! Cut the hurt out Of me! Cut the hurt out Of me!

Clearly, I can't take much more of this These shifts feel like they're endless And they're draining me away. Though I'm Weary, I pull through the abyss I'm drowning in the darkness And I miss the light of day When they say, "You know, That in this job, you'll grow?" They say these things for show It's nothing new, At least, for you Yeah, this is just another Monday night Bleary-eyed, I barely find my keys I twist open the lock to the One room that I call home, though in Reality, it doesn't belong to me It's just the place I sleep and keep Everything that i own When they say, "You know, That in this job, you'll grow?" They say these things for show It's nothing new, At least, for you Yeah, this is just another Monday night I'm sitting on my own The Red Line takes me home It reeks of weed and smoke I think I'll die alone I'm sitting on my own The Red Line takes me home It reeks of weed and smoke I think I'll die alone Theory is all well and good, But theory doesn't feed me, theory Doesn't pay the rent, so Sincerely, I wish to be understood, I don't want to hear theory while I Ideate my end When they say, "You know, That in this job, you'll grow?" They say these things for show It's nothing new, At least, for you Yeah, this is just another Monday night I'm sitting on my own The Red Line takes me home It reeks of weed and smoke I think I'll die alone I'm sitting on my own The Red Line takes me home It reeks of weed and smoke I think I'll die alone

I dream of an ocean far away A beach of sand and bonmeal sits beneath my toes As if no one else had anything to say As if no one else had anyway to find where I might go Before me sits a boat of oak and steel It's rocking back and forth, the waves are gentle here The metal is scratched, and the paint has peeled But I feel more at home than I have for years Within the boat, there lies a fitted bed Upon which one can find the things that make me feel at ease Exhausted, I approach with feet of lead The endless sun and cozy warmth will lead me into sleep I pull my tired body through the sand So I might fin'lly rest, I'll push through my last fear Along the way, I crumple to my hands The sand is spilling blood, the sea is naught but tears Yet, in my dream, I'm lifted to my feet By a woman whom I'd seen before in distant memories That woman whom I'd always hoped to meet She leads me to the boat and sets me down delicately She asks me if I'd like some company I smile and she understands, she starts to push the boat I smile as I move towards the sea I smile as I understand this boat was never built to float And as I sink, I wave to her goodbye And as I sink, I thank her for her time And as I sink, I wave to her goodbye And as I sink, I start to close my eyes This coffin is for me In that darkest of my dreams As I sink through the sea, I am released and I am free Since I was seventeen, I knew what fate had set to be And in that darkest of my dreams, That coffin waits for me It waits for me

Dynamic shifts in our relationships with ourselves One day, you're just working hard to pay the rent The next day, you know you're exploited Do you wanna see another sunrise from a train platform in the middle of December The first time was cool, the second time was cold The third time, you scared that you'll still be here when you're older And if you had the chance to break free, would you take it? Dynamic shifts in our relationships with ourselves Do you still feel the same way that you did back in high school? Despite bills and rent and due dates, they're all just papers and rubrics Don't you think, at your age, you deserve more respect? And if you had the chance to break free, would you take it? This should have been more When you look at your paycheck, you know it should have been more The US COVID response, you know it should have been more When you recall dead children, you know they should have been more When you see how they treat us, you know it should have been more This should have been more This should have been more This should have been more Dynamic shifts in our relationships with ourselves Can you recognize when you're in a cycle of self-destruction? No matter what you find in the bottle, you'll find more in your fellow worker Cause nothing in the world has more power than solidarity And if you had the chance to break free, would you take it?

Forgotten words on a blank canvas I can't recall just what they meant Despite all I've said feeling candid Is this what I chose to represent? Endless verses lost to abandon A snapping string creates the perfect chord And all that's left makes you feel rancid And all that's left makes you feel bored As all my guilt and hate surrounds me You meet my eyes, tell me what you aee If you see me like I see myself There's just no escaping from this hell And I will let myself sink into the sea

Oh, I I have lived my life In a way where I am forced to grow while never changing And I I have lived my life Afraid if I were to embrace myself, I would be left behind And it isn't easy To see the worth of a life lived for someone else's values Ain't easy To understand why I should love myself In this dissonant chateau Through my innocence, I know As more dissident I grow My indifference will flow away The ambivalence is so Damn ubiquitous in vogue So I've forgiven all of my woe In opposition to my foes At least for today This is an admission of failure Not in the sense of capitalistic responsibility, but in the sense of self-love For the credit I refuse myself, I would never reject another For the hatred towards myself, no human would deserve And this is not a victory It is a momentary elation built on a history of defeat and I will fail again But in this minute, this second, I repudiate my shackles I embrace my personhood in solidarity with those before me So, this one's for the girls who see nothing in the mirror but boys This one's for the dropouts who worry they've wasted their lives This one's is to recognize that failure is an imposition That your life fucking matters, all they've said to you are lies